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We’re watching one more Breaking Bad episode tonight then going to bed.  And even though I said I probably wouldn’t again, I think I’m going to do an ambien and a half.  I really really shouldn’t have gone out in the back field- at least not without even a single crutch. I really knew better, I was already flaring and I should have paid attention to that.

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But I wanted those pictures so much.  The last few weeks have given me a few opportunities to really… feel like a photographer again and it’s painful how much I miss it.  But the last few weeks have also reminded me WHY I don’t shoot the way I want to anymore too.  I just… can’t.

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So while the results have been good, art wise- physically and emotionally… it’s been painful.  To sort of.. buck up against my limitations again.  

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But I don’t have class again till wednesday, so i’m hoping if I can drug up enough with the ambien to sleep a good chunk of the day tomorrow then maybe I’ll be able to handle going to class on Wednesday.

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I’m so tired.  And I’m not super thrilled to be reminded just how much I’ve lost physically.

Monday, September 1, 2014

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My favorite photo from the day.  I know it’s off-kilter… but I love it anyway… or because of it, or something.  

My favorite photo from the day.  I know it’s off-kilter… but I love it anyway… or because of it, or something.  

More of the neighbor’s horses, I’m trying not to include photos with the kids faces in them too much, but the one of my Cousin Will and his daughter came out so well I can’t help but share it!  She had some especially great moments with the black-haired brown horse.

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In the last photo you can see Kris showing the kids how to feed the horse.  They were big fans of the apples the kids brought to them.

Spent Labor Day at dad’s ranch. The attraction today was the neighbor’s horses walking through dad’s back pasture.  He has an arrangement with the neighbor to let them graze there until Spring when he’ll decide if he wants to prep it for cultivation or not.

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Also, the top photo is dad on his new tractor.  It has a bunch of different attachments, but his current pride and joy is the cart.  We loaded it up with the little cousins and then they went trucking out to the pasture to go feed the horses.  We adult cousins walked out later on.  The horses were super friendly once they had our scent.

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Home again home again.  Had a wonderful day, waaaaay overdid it.

Now, feeding the animals while Kris takes my car to get gas (god bless her) so I don’t have to do anything tomorrow but recuperate from overdoing it today (like I hiked out in the back field to get pictures of horses and forgot to take my crutch with me overdid it.  oooops). 

Then I’m going to work on editing photos and getting them posted while we watch our batch of Breaking Bad episodes for the night.

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Tomorrow I’ll be resting and hopefully starting on our first big in-design project which is due Sunday.

theroguefeminist:

cetaceanhandiwork:

reminder that since ursula is a straight-up shapeshifter, it follows that, if her accustomed form is pear-shaped and visibly aged, it’s because that’s how she likes it

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theroguefeminist:

cetaceanhandiwork:

reminder that since ursula is a straight-up shapeshifter, it follows that, if her accustomed form is pear-shaped and visibly aged, it’s because that’s how she likes it

win

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Bitching under the cut because it’s petty and mostly due to my being super tired and cranky

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So we’re going up to the ranch today and kris is coming which is fine except if it was just me I’d leave at 10, but instead we’re leaving at 11 except it’s Kris so it’ll probably be more like 12 and she’ll insist in driving so it’ll take longer and I’ll have to figure out how to not let her driving annoy the shit out of me.
And as much as I’m glad she’s coming, I wish I had gone up last night, stayed over and just had her come up today so we could be driving separately.
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I know these are stupid problems but by the time we get there everyone else will have been there at LEAST 2 hours and that pisses me off. Like technically, I’d get ready and go right now, but Kris is still asleep. Grrrr.
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Maybe I’ll run to the store and get strawberries and dessert to take with us, that would save us one time sacking stop at least.

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so tiiired.

The party was good.  I mean, you know, as good as a party can be when you’re saying good bye to friends who are moving.  There were pot brownies so i had the pleasure of some dulled pain for a bit which was nice too.

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Now, editing photos, then probably heading to bed.  Heading up to see dad at the ranch tomorrow and spending the day with the afam.

potterwhodiaries:


Stick in there!!

potterwhodiaries:

Stick in there!!

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breenewsome:

Handcuff suicides are oddly common… #handsup #dontshoot #policebrutality #ourlivesmatter #ferguson #mikebrown #blacklivesmatter

breenewsome:

Handcuff suicides are oddly common… #handsup #dontshoot #policebrutality #ourlivesmatter #ferguson #mikebrown #blacklivesmatter

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Selfie with the moo man… Aka Matt the Catt Smith

Selfie with the moo man… Aka Matt the Catt Smith

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I’m so used to printing vertically oriented cards, printing a horizontal one is presenting me with a bit of a logistical challenge.  I’ve had to sketch it out on a spare sheet of paper in hopes of feeding my double sided photo paper correctly.

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I gotta get it right and I only have 2 tries.  :meep:

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Sitting down to write a “goodbye” card for Stacey and Andi and just thinking about it makes my heart hurt.

I’m so glad they’re moving on to better things, starting new, starting over.

But I am so so sad that they’re going.  I’m going to miss them (and Tiny T) so so much.

Curse my broken body for keeping me from seeing them more this last year.

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I love love love when people get so excited about their illustrations.  Like, I’ve stopped worrying about it when folks only click the like button and don’t reblog or reply.

It took me a long time to realize a lot of folks want to participate, don’t mind being linked FROM the project, but aren’t comfortable just… broadcasting it on their own blogs.

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But when people get super excited and gush and tweet about it and reply and reblog and respond- it just… it makes my heart warm :)

PSA is a great distraction for me- in that space between… really bad pain and … stuck in bed pain.  I would continue to do it if no one ever said thank you again, or if submissions stopped… I’d find famous people, I’d find selfies, I’d illustrate disabled/chronically ill people however I could find them.

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But seeing people get so excited seeing themselves illustrated, seeing people share their illustrations, talk about PSA on their blogs.  Is such a wonderful bonus.  It reminds me that while the act of it is for me- the outcome… is for all of us.  

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I started PSA on a whim almost 9 months ago.  And even with the 2/3 month hiatus- it is quite possibly the best thing I have ever done with my time, my talents, and my energy.