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Tomorrow’s MRI has to be postponed.  Doctor has to be in the OR tomorrow b/c of last minute surgery.  They’re going to call me tomorrow probably to reschedule it for another day.

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I was upset at first, because I really just want to get this shit over with.  But now I’m kind of glad.  I’m in so much fucking pain.  This way I can just keep pain pilling at regular intervals and sleep and rest tomorrow.  And then be bright and cheery (well, relatively) to meet the biodad for lunch on Thursday.

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I don’t get why people get so worked up about eyebrows.  Like, I have tried to understand it from the perspective of people who dig makeup and the whole… look but I just don’t.

And maybe it’s because (along with every other hair on my body) I lost my eyebrows during chemo.  Or maybe it’s because only my right one grew back all the way, and my left only halfway.  Or maybe it’s because some random skin irritation has now left me with matching half-eyebrows, which, if I allow them to grow all the way out itch and pimple up like nobody’s business and look gross.

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So now, I live my life with half an eyebrow over each eye.
And I’ll be honest: I like my half eyebrows. 

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This is not a criticism of those that do put time and effort into achieving the… perfect eyebrow aesthetic (whatever that may be), but just a reminder to the folks like me, with our uneven brows, our half-there eye punctuation, with smooth foreheads, and sometimes (for whatever reason) smooth everythings… 

We are just as attractive, and just as “on point” and just as “fierce” and just as fucking beautiful.  Even if we’ll never be someone’s “eyebrow inspiration.”

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I will never have thick, perfectly sculpted brows punctuating sharply pointed eyeliner below purposely tousled hair.  But I’ll tell you what I do have: a body free from Cancer (knock on wood).  And I’ll be honest- I think my eyebrows were the smallest and least important price I paid in exchange.

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Hooray! Kris is home.  She likes that the garage is clean.  Not the level of excitement I’d hoped considering how much fucking work it was, but I’ll take it.

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Now, naps for everyone!

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Pumzi - dir. Wanuri Kahiu // Kenya

In a dystopian future 35 years after an ecological WWIII  has torn the world apart, East African survivors of the devastation remain locked away in contained communities, but a young woman in possession of a germinating seed struggles against the governing council to bring the plant to Earth’s ruined surface.

The main character is a museum curator in the future and also yes I would like see this now please

THERE IS NOTHING ABOUT THIS I DON’T LIKE

The complete short film is on youtube and it’s really good and the end kind of took my breath away. 

GET INTO THIS

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:sings alleluia chorus:

I am DONE.  
The garage is ready to shock Kris,
The Laundry is done
Donations have been donated
Drawer Pulls have been replaced
Linens/Towels/Dog Blankets have all been stowed in their respective places
Animals have been fed
Dogs are out and in according to their preferences
Boxes are scooped

I am fucking exhausted.  I’m going to take a couple pain pills, watch some x-files, possibly nap.

Kris should be back before 4pm and I will either stay awake until she gets home and I can show her her surprises, or set an alarm and take a nap so I wake up before she *gets* home.

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Either way, my work here- is fucking done.  thank you very much.

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Boxes are scooped, car is loaded, I am totally worn out.
If I leave here in an hour, I can stop and get gas, drop off donations, go to home depot and be back before noon.

Then I can sleep the sleep of the dead.

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I GOT EVERYTHING DONE.

Well, I mean I have to go to Genesis to drop off the donations, and stop at home depot to get the drawer pulls- but everything pre-errand is FINISHED!  I even have most of the donations loaded in the car.  

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Stopping to feed myself after feeding the critters, and I may lie down for an hour or two- then scoop the litter boxes, load the 2 bags of donation clothes in the car and head out.  I have to stop and get gas on my way to the donation place or I won’t make it.  But once that’s done and I get the drawer pulls from Home Depot- I’ll really be done done.

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Lord have mercy.  I have reallllly overdone it.  It’s probably a good thing that I’m having that MRI tomorrow.  The Valium should help zonk me out and I can spend the rest of the day after resting up.  Then thursday- I meet my biodad for lunch :squee:

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For now, food, a nap, and then… back to work- the errand version. Kris should be back home by 4pm.

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you can tell a movie is going to be a shitty, forgettable comedy when the font they use for the movie’s title in advertisements looks

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I’m so tiiiiiired.

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But I’m soooooo determined to finish this laundry so I can take EVERYTHING to donate tomorrow morning.

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:sigh:

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Hooray, I got laundry soap and the first load of donation clothes are washing right now.  When they’re done they’ll go in the dryer and the 2nd load will get washed.  Then I’ll fold the first load into a plastic bag, then the 2nd load when that’s done and then tomorrow am I can take the big blue tub, the old suitcase, and the 2 bags of clothes over to genesis and donate the whole kit and caboodle (yay!)

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Then hopefully I can swing by home depot to get a drawer pull, and be home with enough time to finish putting the towels and stuff into the red dresser in Kris’ room before she gets home.

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Once she gets home man, I am going to sleep. I’m fuckin exhausted.

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omg we’re out of laundry soap.  Now I have to decide- do I have any small, bent, tarnished spoons left to get me BACK to the neighborhood walmart to buy some?

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ughhhh.

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If I don’t- I’ll have to get it tomorrow and I won’t be able to take EVERYTHING to genesis to donate which I really want to do so I don’t have to make another trip later on.

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Ok we all know I’m going back to walmart to get laundry soap right? 

Because really, once you’ve started overdoing it, why not really hammer that nail into the coffin eh?

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I wish I could have taken a before picture of the garage.  But it was so disgusting I couldn’t bear to!  Now however (a mere 3 hours after starting)… it is considerably improved.  Kris is going to flip out when she sees it tomorrow.  :yay:

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1 load of stinky clothes in the washer, another waiting to wash.  I’m going to take a shower, get MY clean clothes out of the dryer and put them away, then put the 1st stinky load in the dryer, the 2nd stinky load in the washer and then when both are done, folded and bagged for donation- I’ll call it a night.  :whew:

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Chattin’ with the bio dad again, and even though I should be used to it by now (we’ve been gabbing on FB Messenger for a couple weeks now) it’s just really nice.  To talk to someone I’m related to and not have to shy away from political/social topics.  We’re on the same side of like 99% of them.  It’s really nice.